World Peace

It's been a long time since I've blogged. Now it's the exam period and I've been buried under books, lecture notes and lotsa information. Finally, I can resurface and take a breath before I submerge into economics and cognitive psy again. Haha. So glad to see people tagging my blog =)

Anyway, this period of time is challenging for me. More than just studying 12hours everyday...there are many areas of my life that I had to deal with and needed a breakthrough. With multiplying pressures and stress just piling up, I begin to experience panic attacks. Panic attacks are basically feeling anxious without a cause and this anxiety disrupts one's ability to do anything for a period of time. For a few nights, I will be suddenly gripped with fear and anxiety in my heart...not because I was thinking or worrying about something. But this anxiousness steals the peace in my heart without warning and can last for hours. After which I will not be able to do anything.

After battling with this for a week, I became frustrated enough to finally decide to put a stop to it. I started crying out to God in prayer and asked for peace to fill my heart. Whenever I prayed, peace and calmness enters my heart. But when I stopped praying, fear came back again. So I had to pray a few times before this anxiety stopped.

This is the 3rd week since my first panic attack started. And thank God it has left me. I realized the importance of having peace in your heart. Without peace, it's like living in a war zone. Now I truly understood why Jesus is the prince of peace and have come to gave us peace. People are trying to go on vacations to some secluded island, do meditations and listen to calming music to get serenityd tranquility. Yea, it does work and has benefits but only temporary or superficially. Thank God I've a better way to get peace that will remain and that is always available just by praying.

Ok, that's all for tonight. Needa catch some rest! Exams are going to end on 7th May. Can't wait for the 3.5months holiday. Gonna do relief teaching, learn guitar & driving, go for a holiday and have honeymoons with God =)